Middle of the night thoughts

Well, it's the middle of the night and I am just rambling along in my head. I feel like a boat bouncing up and down in uncharted waters, not really sure of where I am headed. Should I fight for testing my Youngest or just let it go and keep doing what we are doing as far as homeschooling? Should I keep applying for jobs out of the area or just wait as I now know I have a job till July? Should I continue to try and rid the house of unused, unwanted and just plain junk or am I giving too many things away that I may later regret? Shoulda, woulda, coulda. I have been praying for guidance but at this moment in time, I just question myself if it is God's will or mine. I just don't know. Thank God for the 3 F's-family, friends and faith....it will in the end be God's will not mine. This Too Shall Pass and Let Go and Let God need to be in the forefront of this rambling brain!

Frustration but then maybe a blessing

Yesterday we did a SST for the third time for Youngest. My hope was to hear of some curriculum that would work for Youngest. Some suggestions to guide us. Instead I heard "Perhaps (Youngest) would be better served in your local public school." "Perhaps you are jumping from one curriculum to another too fast for her." "All I am hearing is what she can't do. Are you saying this around her?" One hour and ten minutes later, I had stated that I disagreed with their plan but I would do their plan. Knowing full well that we were getting pushed off till next school year. Today I spoke with our local school district's special education director and was told that we didn't have to wait that long. That I could write a letter asking for a psychoeducation assessment now and why. "It starts the clock" and they have to respond. The respond could be yes or no on doing it. Do I want to do this? Should I do this? Just not sure!

Xmas and the New Year

Wow, I can't believe it's been a month since I last blogged. It has been a very busy month at that! Christmas was spent with family and friends. The 23rd was spent delivery Xmas gifts of homemade goodies. Xmas Eve Day was doing more of the 23rd. In the evening we went to church so the kiddos could enjoy the candlelight service. Xmas Day was spent just relaxing and calling family to wish them a joyous holiday. Day after Xmas was spent delivery more gifts. Did a lot of reading and movie watching.

The 29th brought a snowstorm resulting in giving a late Xmas present to Hubby's mother. We had no electricity for 2 hours and very little firewood left. Woke up on the 30th with no water. That evening the well guy attempted to see what was up resulting in getting stuck in our backyard in the ditch covered in 4-5 inches of snow with digging having to occur to escape. Woke up on the 31st with Me stating "I'm done!" Attempted to find a timeshare or hotel with no luck on New Year's Eve except Las Vegas. Sure not taking two younguns to Vegas on New Year's Eve. Got in the van and drove to spend a long weekend with Grandma. Grandpa, Grandma, Aunties and Uncle all got to have a visit for the holidays. Kiddos went to the World Famous San Diego Zoo with Grandma. Much better than no water or heat (:

Upon our return home, three days later we had a $750 van repair that had to be done. It was a complete nightmare weekend. Trying to find a vehicle when none were to be had. Had to hitch a ride with a friend to get a car one hour away. Love living rural but sometimes it has its disadvantages! Almost got a speeding ticket when I tried returning the car. Rental car versus van....you guess which goes faster! Thank goodness, the police officer took pity on my poor, very lost soul. Oldest was in the car when it happened. You can tell that she is a true homeschooler. After we drove away from the police officer, she said, "Mom that was something that I learned new. Do you want me to write some sentences about it?" Now I can laugh about it but at the time, I was very embarassed to say in the least. "Sure Honey, write those sentences so your teacher can learn all about your speeding mother!"

Work has been a challenge and I continue to pray that God will bless me with a new career. Tonight I just completed another job application. This one is in Oceanside-back to where we came from. Today I had an interview for a position that I would absolutely love!! It would be a new challenge. I would learn new things. It is more money. It is by the farm. It is by my side of the family. And best of all, it is still rural so we can have our goats, chickens, cat and gardening. Keeping my fingers crossed and praying for God's will in whatever direction he leads our family!

I sure didn't lie when I said that we were busy this last month! Till next post..