New experiences

Well, it's been a challenging month.  Hubby was applying for jobs with no results.  A friend of ours suggested filing for bankruptcy.  Initially the thought was not a possibility.  We have great credit scores.  Always paid the bills on time....And then God helped us make the choice.  I had a car accident, actually a van accident.  Luckily I am alive and I count that as a blessing.  Luckily the rest of the family was not in the vehicle and I count that as a blessing.  Luckily the passenger in the other vehicle is alive and I count that as a blessing.  But it made the decision for us, we are going to file.  We only had liability insurance.  A grand mistake in this state.  Been having problems with our health insurance all year.  Have paid out in over $3,000 in medical bills or medications this year.  And all of this before the accident.  In many ways it is a relief because Hubby will be able to stay home like we all want and we have been struggling financially. 

I hurt from the accident.  Seeing the chiropractor three times a week.  Taking medications for the pain.  We got a new used van that will work for camping.  Going to miss not having the timeshares for traveling, vacation.  Try to think of the positives but hard sometimes.  Especially in the middle of the night.

Each night for the past month, I have been either writing down or thinking in my head three positive events or things that I am grateful for.  Most nights I remember to do this and it does help.  Been crying and some depression.  I know that some of it is the result of medications and the accident but some is just from life events and living through this.  I try to keep in mind that it is God's will and that God is watching over me and my family.  Like I told Hubby, I see the end goal and know that it is for the best but the steps to that goal are a struggle.  Keep us in our thoughts and prayers!